Random Thoughts

When in life you know that everything is loosing from your grip, everything is leaving, the last straw you cling on to is not strong enough, you wither. you wither and break. It is this dire situation we are going though right now. It is just 3 more days left for us here. Here in our dearest Alma mater, My College, My Viswajyothi.

There used to be a time when we complained. complained about the labs, the strictness, the uniform and what not!!! But now i understand, without them memories, what is life? I will say, this will be.. These memories I have here with me in plenty, will serve as the last straw I’ll cling on to in my life and all eternity. These four years.. from nothing to the top of the world. VJC have been an arena which moulded us for the greater good. Now, when it is time to leave, all i hope for is the time to slow down..the sound of clock ticking to vanish, to spend a little more time with my friends, my teachers, my loved juniors.

I do admit. I did have an idea, that this would be painful. But this, is much more than I can stand. It has been a Zahir, an obsession that takes me away from everything that i am. I knew I loved my college. But to digest that, I’ll be moving from my comfort circle of friends and well wishers to a completely hostile and unknown world where anyone could carry a knife to stab my back, is a bit too much. I ain’t say I’m afraid. no. But…. aaah!!

About the life I lived, I’m not sad. I donot have any complaints. I AM completely satisfied with all the things I’ve been doing for the college. I’ve poured my sweat and blood for causes beyond number. I’ve done my best to lead the group that is our class without clashes or diviations. when so happened, negotiated, and got us back on track. I’ve done all I can for the class, for the jobs, all I can for the college, for the fellow students, for IEEE, and my best for them juniors.

I’ve never tried to copy someone.Never followed someone blindly. and I do believe, I’ve left my footprints clear on the rocks.

Last day, it was a Gurudakshina. It was nothing but a petty, virtual, smallest token of gratitude and love that we had to our teachers. All we asked for, is remembrance. Remember us, that the thought would bring a smile on your lips. Remember us, so that we go happy and content that whatever sweat and bloody may we have spilled, it doesn’t matter. For, we are remembered.

Never quite understood the climax dialog of the movie, 300. Never understood completely what King Leonidas wished for. Now, I think I do understand. Fare thee well, my friends. May The Light Shine upon you with plenty. Always.

I can see the smile in ur lips.. yeah, i can see that.

You see, I do take it as a great skill of manoeuvring, from her proximity, that have avoided in a stupid collision where I won’t look at her, and she won’t look at me, making us feel even stupider!! By the way, I should credit her too, as she’s supporting me like anything in this particular cause!

Well, things have been pretty clear these days, our madam have made it very clear about the ruthless dislike that she has for me. Yeah!! me, you humble friend!! Will you believe it?  So I thought, if that is what you wish, so be it. I never asked for the stupid romances, if that is what she is afraid of!!

The point that I want to stress upon is, the conclusion we had arrived on that stupid fateful day is that we’ll never take up this discussion ever again, and that we’ll be what we’ve always been. madam suggested it. and lo! i think she do have a very pathetic memory. naa.. never mind, we’ll give her a memory management class once she’s within my proximity. er.. close proximity, if you understand what I mean. .

Aaah!! my dear, I should tell you. if you ever thought that this particular particular action of your is enough to fend me off, think again! I do admit; I do have an itching and irritation whenever i see the actress that u love. and the name that is yours. But other than that, I’m perfectly fine. You want me to forget you? Sorry! It will take more than just a command to do that! I’ve always told. wait for my coming. first light on the second day, fifth year. Look to the east.

Na.. Look to the west. (great!! I got a better topic to talk on) The sun will be shining on my face. It’ll be hard to drive towards the sun. who cares, I’ll take in the pain!! I’ll not be able to see you. You’ll be silhouetted by the greater light on your back. Or, will the sun be illuminated? I still can’t come up on a decision which is a greater luminance!! .

My dear, I’ve been discussing about Love for some time. Initially, started off as a hardcore NO-LOVE-U-STUPID!! Now, I stand midway. The path I have to tread is a lot long. But one thing is clear. A person should not and cannot genuinely another with a set of predetermined prejudices. Love comes, get in life, and we start loving!! there is nothing like, u modulate.

” this person to be loved? yea.

this one ? no.”

To be in love is to be mad in love. And whatever happens, I do intend to be mad. Its better to mad than to pretend. Its better to take the risk and fail than not revealing what I had to tel you. Even if that mean you not talking to me. I can suffer that pain. but suffer the brand of a traiter. I chose this path. and I do hope that will make all the difference. Whatever happens, I’ll stay happy and content.