Perhaps, I didnt shudder much when he delivered the verdict. Perhaps it is because I am going through the same shit for the second time in a few months time, that I didn’t utter a curse.

So much for the 30 days training which we so painfully underwent.. Like the most, lost in the oblivion; made for nothing. If I am to analyze the feeling that I am going through now, I believe I will find things that will make me startled, at the least. That is something that I have trained myself all these days. Not the startling part.. But the analysis part.

It is a wonderful feeling that you get every time when you analyze the behavior of the self. Not only that it will help you a lot in understanding the responses; but also, give an insight of the reaction that could trigger in the receiving entity.

The scenario is best suited when you know that you are supposed to be mad at a particular circumstance.
The possible reactions this would have triggered in you would be:

  • The tendency to shout at people 😀
  • The feeling “Why is this always happening to me??”
  • “He is responsible for all this crap that I have to go through now. If only he had not assigned me to this new shit!!”
  • I hate this crap!

Well, I think these were the predominant feelings that I had. Now, when I was thinking on it, I was able to structurize the path through which these emotions and feelings build up.

  1. The situation is bad : mandatory circumstance
  2. We think for a moment; what on earth can I do to improve it. Mind you, a moment. Not more.
  3. Finding no immediate shortcut solution, we dive deep into the emotional attack.

Now, I started the analysis at the step 2. Well, I think I extended the time-dom of the step by a bit. It was pretty easy. It could be assumed that if the step 2 comes to a dead end within no time, the invariable destination will be step 3 and through that, depression. I do not want that, do I? Nay. The answer is and will be a stiff necked NO.

So. Thinking on the issue again. What can I do, to improve the shit that I am in. There is not a point in blaming the company. They had to do the work, after all it is business. And I am dead sure that they did not mean it to be personal. So, leave that part. Thinking, we try to define the shit that we are in. Well, if we are to define… Hmmm.. I need to learn a lot of new things. I will have night shifts. Tickets mean no more “lots of free time”. Lots and lots of work.

Once the situation is defined and we have a clear cut idea about the worst case scenarios; the situation is not that bad. Simple, If we are to learn; learn more!! there is no other way, do we??

Guys.. The paradigm shift(Yea, its a cliché. I know) I had was very small. If you ask me, I would say. hmmmm… I started thinking from why to how. Or more precisely, The question changed from “why is this happening to me” to “How can I change this??” Trust me, the effect that this had in the response is huge 🙂